Depression (Iteration 10)

The nightmares and the insomnia have come back

As have the devils and their deviled fantasies

After all this time they tell me once again exactly how I crack

How my own very Sun fails

How I terror right through my Self

So I travel through this world with a torch

That I hold onto, knowing it breathes

Everything I want and desire

Knowing how I feel and believe and love

And despite all of this

All of the waking and dreaming of

Desperation

It seems I still breathe, still breathe

Through the chest of death

Holding onto the torch of love

M.M.

Circle

I've voyaged upon cosmic lightbursts

and the shine of suns

Forgetting that my mind could hurl itself

all on its own

Relying on neuronal impulses

and the electricity in between

I forgot that a thought

could last a thought

or as long as the universe's sigh

Just as I fought thought in the dead of night

even though I was in zero gravity

knowing that all I knew

was nothing at all

Everything beautiful comes from a star

for a star out-multiplies

leaf and bone, stone and brain

Even though we, sons of suns, are nothing but

leaf and bone, stone and brain

And so I adore everything from a star

and all leaves and bones

and all stones and brains

I have come from nothing

knowing nothing

Just a quantum of matter
coming to know that

aught and all mean very little indeed

And that everything

I need

Is every part of every thing

M.M.

north song

buried my heart in the mountain north
earth and thunder, breath and bone
awoke in the light of the first day
earth and thunder, blood and stone

felt my body sing with the wind
cloud and moon, star and sky
my blood running in vein and stream
cloud and moon, raven's cry

found the warrior within me
heart and fire, sword and soul
fast asleep for far too long
heart and fire, breath and cold

forgot the desire within me

man and wolf, wild and free

I rose up from my very deep

man and wolf, the rage in me

M.M.

[Began in 2016; completed in 2021]