"Not by design"

Not by design or by intent

It did not become fact because it was meant

The two streams seemingly coursed apart

For years on end, till in one abrupt shift

They collided into one another

I lost all my words, and felt nothing but a chaotic peace

Standing in the sun, I felt the light fill me inside

It was the Answer I did not know I had longed for

The epiphany to efface the Question I did not know to ask

In a quiet room, on a day of little mention

A thought cracked like lightning

A clarity swept like fire through my being

In that moment, with no warning, I finally knew

My heart

My mind

Both belonged to her

"I dreamt of a grassy beach"

I dreamt of a grassy beach, of a storm approaching from the sea. Dark and heavy clouds moving as a living entity toward the land. I stood upon a mound and felt the coming change, felt the wind and the cold that grew gradually. I was nothing but a witness to an event as old as the earth. A rhythm of nature. A moment in time. And through it all, throughout my watching, I wondered of her - saw her in the distance. For this storm from the sea, this dream of dark and wind and rain - was her. An event of such great magnitude that it would change the land forever - she would change me forever.