I consider the time...

I consider the time when you are lying awake in bed at night, waiting for sleep to take you away to oblivion, to be one occasion when you truly get to know who you are. For consider: there you are, alone with just the whirl of your thoughts and darkness to block out everything around you, to encase you within your overactive mind. It is here when you progress through all the significances of your life, those that constitute the current important events that either agitate or delight you. But what is of note is that there is nothing to cause (or enable) you to dismiss even your most troublesome thoughts. That is to say that even though you may be able to pack away the thoughts that you find distressing during the day, they have the mischievous habit of rising to the fore when your mind is free to churn, as it is when you lie contemplatively in bed before sleep. Sorely envied is the person who has but pleasant and agreeable musings when conversing with themselves during this time. I for one nightly engage in a tussle of reflection and slicing introspection that has no resolution at its end. But then, in my life I demand and actively pursue truth as much as possible. And truth, I can assure you, always awaits you patiently in the darkness.