26 February 2012

Grotesquerie

[Metapoem III / Experimental II]

Variations on a theme; experimentation on technique.

I can
             feel Him
       in my mind
I can hear Him scratch at the doors
                     picking at the walls
               Don't
let the lights go out! never the silence!
Why              is it
             when      I
      shatter                     the
mirror          and
                         try
             to    rearrange
      the                                    shards
      does the reflection remain the same?
"Perhaps if I just sever our left hand we
    You know we won't ever stop; we like this"
"won't have to worry about doing it again?
    too much. Now stop your nonsense and pay"
"Because, we've only done it a few times...
    attention: there's another one for us."
As I lie in bed in my room, I notice them: edges—where wall meets wall, meeting ceiling.
"Hmm... no, that won't do; the edges are much too crass, and too boring!" Better that they
were more rounded, concave. "—There! Much better." The window shutters as well
leave much to be desired; cascading as a waterfall is more their wont. The ceiling again:
"Surely that's beginning to crack", and crack it does. First slowly, then quickening—"fissures,
at last!". The fragments of this enclosure fall away, are discarded as insignificant bits of
rubbish to the nothingness. Opens the void, and I stream, tip of my mind first, into a—
Desert moonshine
        —scorch me!—scorch me!—scorch me!—
Moon shines in the desert
        —bless me!—bless me!—bless me!—
Shine deserts the moon
        —save me!—save me!—save me!—
I watched    crippled boy, hobbling                street,
             and       to the hardened ground—
And   did       care.
  raped a woman just the          night;
I hurt                    way imaginable—
And I did not        .
I killed a man with my 
Because he looked at             wrong      —
       I                   .
  stole    girl         her bedroom;
I tortured and                 her with a finesse—
And         not care.

M.M. — December MMXI; Februarius MMXII

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